For Auntie Mary, Annie and Kaethie (if she ever gets on this thing)

so i'm not a finisher

i have to keep my mind active, being a mom is a change of pace. faster in some areas, slower in others. i try to busy myself with projects, especially since most of the unpacking has been done (that took a lot of my time). now i have a house to decorate, and since it's a new house, it's a blank slate. i want to do everything all at once and i keep telling myself, a little at a time... especially since i am notorious for taking on too much at once, and leaving things unfinished, or just getting bored and stopping half way.

for example: knitting, i was all about knitting.. never finished that baby blanket, but to my defense i did manage to make violet a hat!

my latest project is the large white wall in my living room. we have 11 foot ceilings, so there is a lot to cover. a simple picture in a picture frame wont do. since jake and i both have such a rich family history that has been pretty well documented (photographically speaking), I had the idea to print pictures on to some fairly large canvas and hang them up like an art gallery. This is already getting pricey, but i think it's worth it. Costco does it for a pretty reasonable price, but the problem is you can't reformat the picture to fit onto the canvas size. this leaves out heads, arms and other important parts of the picture. Luckily i found a website that is just as cost efficient and it lets me resize the pictures if need be. i am pretty determined to get this done by christmas. maybe i need some accountability ? neh. i shut done with too many reminders.

up and running

we have the internet. FINALLY!

our little flower has grown so much since i last updated. we are finally settled in on shelly ave, window coverings, internet, one painted wall.. what else could i ask for?

thanksgiving is around the corner and we are hosting festivities at our house. jake is in charge of the turkey, i told him that my mom had to help since he is a virgin in the turkey cooking business. Also, jake's aunt and uncle for canada (annie and gary) will be joining us.

that's all for now. so nice to join the 21 century again.

you win some, you lose some..

we are finally half way settled into our new home.

dishwasher working

washing machine washing

dryer drying

we still have boxes to unpack and things lingering in shafter and our window coverings wont come in for another 3 weeks! i feel like i am living in a fish bowl and all the neighbors can just walk by and gawk at us... maybe that's not the case but it's really bright ALL THE TIME.

we also do not have cable, nor do we have internet ( i am at my mom's house tickling myself with things of the 21 century)

violet is growing so fast! what a cliche mom thing to say, but it's true! we wake up in the morning and i'd almost swear he head has doubled in size!

she is smiling and "cooing" and when i place her on her stomach, she is about ready to flip over on her back.

she also have this obsession with ceiling fans and lights, which is completely normal. she stares at them for a good 15 min and decides it's too much for her to handle and starts crying.


for example:

BATH-tism by submersion

Visitation Rights

I think I am getting used to this weather..

I must be getting reacquainted with life, I have been feeling somewhat "normal" the past three days. I have been doing things on my own, I took Violet to Target.. TWICE.. I got to spend time with Jessica while Jake and Derric babysat. Jake and I surprised my grandma with a 2 hour visit to top secret 007 surprise visit to Fresno. We got to introduce the Little Flower to "The Fellowship".

I think, all I really needed was time to adjust, MY WAY. I am a classic oldest child. My time, My Way, My Circumstances. I really wanted the chance to feel like Violet was ours, that I established her routine, that I figured out her types of cries, her daily schedule. I've always been the type of person to shut down when people start telling me what to do (I'm not boasting about that either).

The oldest child is caught in a "Catch-22". Even though independence seems to be the essence of their personality make up; there is also a huge desire to be a "people pleaser". It doesn't make sense does it? Through my short 3 weeks of being a new parent, I have seen myself fight for boundaries, and cringe in doubt worry about what others thought of me.

Every new parent needs a time to reconcile this HUGE change in their life. I've learned you have to be confident in your decisions and not be afraid to do what YOU think is best for YOUR child, no what other people may or may not think.